Progress (9)

five pounds

Pounds Lost This Week: 5
Total Lost: 27
Pounds Left to Goal: 23

Well, I finally got my “reset” week! I had only lost about 3 pounds since the beginning of April and was beginning to mentally feel the effects of no progress (see: here). But this week’s weight loss is brought to you by the letter “R” for running and “P” for portion control. This week I got back on track with my training schedule and as difficult as that was for me (it meant going out at 6 am one day to fit in a run and convincing myself I could do it, sore throat or not,) I think it made all the difference. I paid just a little more attention to how much I ate (though honestly, not what I ate which included, I kid you not: a Chinese buffet, a gryo salad, Taco Bell, and McDonalds). 

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Progress (8) (Or not…)

Pounds Lost This Week: 0
Total Lost: 22
Pounds Left to Goal: 28

No fancy photo this week, y’all. I lost zero pounds last week. This is not particularly surprising to me because, no excuses, I have not been eating like a person trying to lose weight. I have not been eating that bad. . . but I have not been eating that well either. Lots of travel, lots of temptation, and not a lot of will to pick the smarter option. This one is on me. Continue reading “Progress (8) (Or not…)”

Progress (7)

2 pounds

Pounds Lost This Week: 2
Total Lost: 22
Pounds Left to Goal: 28

So before I continue, an explanation is in order. I did not post a progress update last week. There were two reasons for that. They are:

1) I was in Minneapolis/St. Paul on Monday morning and did not have access to my bathroom scale.
2) I had eaten vacation-style all weekend and I knew I had gained weight and I rather than beat myself up, I figured I deserved a week to reset.

I hope no one feels like I was being dishonest or refusing to face the reality of my eating choices. But part of this process is learning how to accept myself and learning how to get back on track after a few missteps. My reset week was not exactly The Master Cleanse. The 2 pounds I lost since my last post took two weeks. The last bit of March was not my most disciplined time. I cheated on my food rules and I only worked out once or twice a week. I managed to make a little bit more progress, but I am using the last two weeks as an anecdote to remember what happens when too many things are competing for my focus.

Onward and upward toward April! Spring is coming and I have new food resolutions to share. Lent is over and it was a blessing to me again this year (a post on this to come). I also have a few more new goals for April (another post).  I am really looking forward to the new month and keeping up with my lifestyle changes! As always, thanks so much for following along.

Progress (6)

four pounds

Pounds Lost This Week: 4
Total Lost: TWENTY POUNDS LOST!
Pounds Left to Goal: 30

As of this morning, I have officially lost 20 pounds. I don’t know about y’all, but I am PROUD of myself! Twenty pounds is a lot. It is six weeks of hard work. It is a good diet. It is frequent exercise. It is an amazing support system.

It also is not going hungry. It is not doing anything “exciting” or “trendy” or “amazing.” It is not working out for hours a time, every day of the week. It is not eliminating solid foods.

It is just doing what feels good for my body. It is what has always made sense all along. It is having the beer at dinner but not the french fries. It is the snack of frozen yogurt after the 2 mile run. It is biking back to work after lunch and dragging a friend to kick-boxing. It is enjoying the sunshine.

It feels good to have made progress. I am really happy about the changes that I have made and I have no intention of slowing down now. 20 pounds down, 30 to go.

Progress (5)

two pounds

Pounds Lost This Week: 2
Total Lost: 16
Pounds Left to Goal: 34

I felt like this photo was apt of my week because even though we got our Girl Scout Cookie order in, I still lost 2 pounds! Making reasonable choices is becoming more habitual for me. I have to think about it less and less. At dinner last night I had one small glass of wine and declined any more. It has been weeks since I have had second helpings of anything. I stocked up on a couple pints frozen Greek yogurt at the grocery store and have been surprised to find my sweet tooth satisfied after just a handful of bites.

I have started biking to and from work after my lunch break and have taken a couple longer (for me!) weekend rides which I think has help compensate for a not-so hyper vigilant workout schedule. I really like working out, but some days I just cannot get myself to make it happen so cycling has helped keep me active without much effort.

Brett has been really encouraging and is telling me that he can really see the difference. Which is a nice thing to say and I do not care if it is true at all or not. (He would interject here and say, “It IS true!”) We were talking about my recent lifestyle changes last week and I said something very confidently that I am not sure I have ever said before while trying to lose weight. I said, “will lose the 50 pounds. I have no doubt about that. But my goal is to have a healthier lifestyle.” I don’t know that I have been so assured of my success before and understood that achieving it will be a reality, not just a hope.

Yet here I sit, sure of my success. I know I will see the other side of 50 pounds (and ultimately my goal is more) and think, “Oh gosh, remember when I was doing all of that for the first time?” I know I will be the runner, hiker, cyclist, paddler, kick-boxer, climber, swimmer of my dreams. I am getting better and I am feeling better. Confidently.

Progress (4)

one pound

Pounds Lost This Week: 1
Total Lost: 14
Pounds Left to Goal: 36

This was the week of being snowed in. This was the week of making a bad choice and then trying to overcompensate. This was the week of not really having a plan. This was the week of understanding that I need to change “UGH I’m trying to lose weight which means I have to be a hyper-vigilant hose beast,” into “I’m cultivating health, for my lifetime, and these are the choices I’ll be making in order to do so.” 

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Progress, (3)

3 pounds

Pounds Lost This Week: 3
Total Lost: 13
Pounds Left to Goal: 37

I am starting to feel frustrated. Not with my progress or my methods, but with myself. Last week I said I was eager to lose another 10 pounds so that I could get back to the weight I was when I was last trying to lose. But I am terrible at math. I am actually 20 pounds away from that goal. What I am saying is that I let myself put on over 20 pounds since the last time I said to myself, “I have got to deal with this.” That’s frustrating. I am making progress, but I am just undoing the damage I have done in the last two years. I am not really making any new progress.

I guess the fact is that this weight thing has always been about a lot more than just my physical world. I have let my body control my mind, my emotions, and my spirit. I feel like in some ways, I am conquering that for the first time, even though this isn’t the first time I have tried to lose weight. I am building a team of support that is bigger and more diverse and more dynamic than it has been before. I am listening to my body. I am trying new things (kickboxing, cycling, swimming). I am not cheating.

I have recorded all my workouts on a calendar this month. When I look back on February, I see 6 rest days. On average, I have exercised 5 days a week (sometimes more). That is a victory. That is a lifestyle change. That is a sustainable habit. (More on that later).

I have to accept the fact that in some ways, I have sabotaged myself. I ignored myself and in doing so, made it that much more difficult for me to win in this. But I believe the mistakes of yesterday cannot conquer my spirit today. Sure, if I would have started this journey two years and twenty pounds ago, I would be further along. But I tried this two years ago and I was not the person I am today. It is the person I am today who is growing, learning, and making progress. It is slow progress, but it is deliberate. And I am the one making it happen.

Next Monday, I’ll post about how February Food Resolution and share some plans for March. Thanks for coming along!

Progress (2)

three pounds

Pounds Lost This Week: 3
Total Lost: 10
Pounds Left to Goal: 40

This was another victory week. The first week always just feels like the body adjusting back to itself. This feels like real progress. The first week I worked out 6 days. Last week, I rested on Sunday and Wednesday and did just a short walk on Monday. However, I got in a run (I MUST GET NEW SHOES) and a nice long hike which felt great. Today, I bought my first commuter bike so I can start riding to work (weather permitting, hopefully starting soon) and went to my first kickboxing class which I have completely fallen in love with. Who doesn’t want to punch something at the end of their day?

I’m eager to lose another 10 pounds. That will put me around the weight I was when I ran my first 5K and the last time I was successful at losing weight (thanks to another short lived fitness blog.) Once I get past these next 1o pounds? Well, then we’re in business.

Brett and I have always talked about (and sincerely believed) that good health is about making small choices. Get the salad, skip the fries. Park a little father away than necessary. Play outside. But I don’t feel that we’ve been living those choices until now. It feels good to make progress, but it feels even better knowing I’m rewarding my body with good health (thanks Kara!)

Progress

seven poundsPounds Lost This Week: 7
Pounds Left to Goal: 43

I still have much to say about my plans for this process, but let me start with this- is there anything better than a really successful first week? Most of that weight loss is likely water weight and some general self correction after a weekend of over eating, so I expect much smaller numbers next week. However, my food resolutions guided me through a weekend in Kansas City which always tempts my willpower. I worked out six days last week, focused on drinking lots of water, and getting as many veggies eaten in a day as I could. I feel reinforced, I feel supported, I feel a great deal of love in my life right now. That alone is a victory.